Birthdays and Engagements

Well today is my B-day, and it has been a crazy one. Well now that I think about it, it has been pretty melow compared to my last few. I work with all men now and came to the relazation that men could not give a care as to if it is your b-day at all. But it was kinda nice not to have all the hype. To be honest I would much rather a B-day of just taking my kid to laugh and play then have a party or have all the hype. I spent the day at work crazy busy, then came home to have pizza and a cookie (my sson picked out) then took the little one to the park to play. Now besides the working part it was perfect. Today when I was getting ready for work, i walked ouot and looked at my son sleeping in his room and thought........ "I am truly blessed, Thank you God for blessing me with all the wonderful things in my life, like my two men".
Today also I got some interresting news, news that most kids would never imagine there parent to say right before you yourself is getting married or your birthday. My mom annouced that she is getting married, and a month or so after I am. This will be my mothers third marriage, the other two not only ended badley for me but of course my mother. I haven't quite processed what i think about this whole thing. I am happy for my mother if she is happy, but they have fought a lot in the past (and I have heard it was overr several times). I am not sure what i feel about getting a new family. I have been hurt pretty bad in the past, so my gaurd is up on having the complete family life. This why I strive so hard for Kohan to have what i didn't, to make sure that he has the love and compasion from a father figure that i didn't. I think I might be a little selfish, because I am not ready for myself to have this family. Howevere I want my mom to have the best, she deserves the best, and I believe he will be the best to her. So I am going to step back, and breath, and pray to God that he will bless there marriage and our familys.
So although this weird day has still left me a little out in the wind, I know at the end of the day God will take care of evereything. My moto is "God doesn't give you anything you can't handle" so God please show me the way.....